Sherlock AU → Sherlock as a romantic comedy

“But the truth is, John… No please, don’t interrupt me, this is already hard, hear me out. The truth is, I know I can be a…Well…”

“An insensitive arse?”

“That’s a way of saying it, yes. But the point is, I’ve never had to make efforts to be nice, all my life people have hated me and that was fine because I didn’t want them to like me, I was fine on my own. And then I met you. You have to understand, I’ve spent my life avoiding relationships, and feelings, and everything that could have distracted me from my work, and then you came into my life and… I cared John. I cared about you and for the first time in my life I actually wanted someone to like me. You.”

“Sherlock…”

“No, no, please John, let me finish. I’ve spent the last 24 hours watching cheesy romantic comedies with Mrs. Hudson because I wanted to find the right way to say this, and I know, generally this is the moment where I say I’m going to do everything I can to change, to be worthy. But I know I can’t change, John. So I guess, my point is, I know that I’m not worthy of you, not in a million years could I ever deserve you, but I need you. And I know I should do the right thing and slowly walk away, because I shouldn’t ask you to love me back, but I can’t either. Please, John, don’t go. I couldn’t bear to lose you.”